Well this weekend was the lowest I have had in quite a while. Sorry if I go off on a tangent but hopefully it will make me feel a load better.
I went to school to conduct a bit of supply teaching and all went ok. Straight after, I went straight to town to get a new outfit for Saturday, this, as you can see from my previous blog about trying on clothes, did not go too well at all! In the evening we went for tea to a local pub for Ste’s 30th birthday and I still felt down about the event throughout the day. I had my food (which I felt guilty about, as I shouldn’t have had it being on the plan I am on but decided to as it was for a special occasion) and I began to feel ok. After I finished, I went into the loo, took a glance into the mirror and saw my awful face…… the blackest bags I have EVER had under my eyes and I looked paler than I usually do! I instantly thought about the need to cut down on the amount of stuff I am doing. This got me feeling even worse and was quiet for the rest of the evening really.
I took my hubby and Ste out as they were continuing the celebration at another pub and I went back to my sister in laws (Susan’s) house, where I was there until 11.30. I went home and went straight to bed as I was in work on Saturday. I woke myself up at 2.30am panicking as Steven wasn’t there and I forgot that he was out. This was the start of a broken night’s sleep.
I got up in the morning and went straight to work, feeling like a bag of crap!
I was working until 2.30 today and I was there from 9-12.30 on my own so I got through the work I needed. I was quieter than and not as cheery as I usually am and a few people noticed this. The lack of sleep and feeling down on Friday stayed with me. I decided to go for ‘round 2’ of trying clothes on and it took me a while to find something. I went home and began to get ready for Manchester. I still looked like crap and the makeup didn’t seem to make me look any different either.
We finally got to Manchester and I decided that I wasn’t going to drink as I seem to become really ill when I do drink. We wasn’t there long and everyone got the train back to Newton where the night continued. I went straight home to get my car and met back up with everyone. I was out until 2am where I was taking everyone home. I finally got to bed with work on Sunday being close in sight.
I got up and went straight to work, today I was on my own all day and thankfully I was busy. I was down again due to the lack of sleep over the weekend and how rough I looked. Chats with some of the HMV lads got my spirits up and I continued my day as normal.
As we all know it was Mothers Day too and this was hard for me. Another year without a child or being pregnant didn’t go down too well with my thoughts. Never the less I wished all my special friends and family with children and who were/are expecting a ‘Happy Mothers Day’. It was nice to see that they had a lovely day. Some people on Facebook and Twitter said that they didn’t have a good day due to some silly reasons, no matter what, if you have a child, Mothers Day would always be special in my eyes.
I got home and did the ‘Mum’ run with the hubby and finally got home and went to bed.
Upon reflection, I think that I should put this weekend behind me and look forward to the future, stay positive and remember that my family and friends are there to support me and always will be.
A big thank you for all the comments, likes and chats I have had over the weekend too. It’s nice to hear and see that there are so many of you who are enjoying my blog and following it.
This makes it worthwhile 🙂