30th Birthday Celebrations

I know, I know, I was 30 back in December but why not blog about it now?!

I turned 30 on the 20th December and for some time, I’ve wanted to have a party to celebrate this.  I might have the odd house party to celebrate but as my birthday is 5 days before Christmas, people can’t seem to make it at times so this was a way to get everyone together and celebrate.  The birthday wasn’t the only celebration though as I was shaving my hair for Cancer Research to support my mum with her cancer journey.

Christmas was the theme and it was an option of Christmas jumpers or Christmas Fancy Dress; I opted for Mrs Claus.  I kitted the room out with Christmas decorations, I called Santa to see if he would come along and give a gift to the kids who where there and I put out a pretty good spread.  I got my brother in law to do the DJing, my sister in law to do the photography and got the family together to set up the room the night before.

The party came soon enough and we had a ball (well I know I did!).  The plan of action was Santa giving out gifts, buffet to open (which gave me time to have my hair plaited ready for the head shave), head shave and then party the night away.

All the kids loved having Santa there, they all receive a gift each (I chose well as they loved them!), the photos came out great too (I’d never doubt that for a second of course!) and then it was time for me to take a seat ready for the raffle.  Most plaits were raffled off so everyone had a shot of cutting one off.  These were put away for safe keeping of course as they were being donated to The Little Princess Trust.  Then my friend Diane shaved the rest of my hair off!  Scary but amazing especially with the hair I had!

Then the surprise came….. my husband of 7 years proposed to me!  Back in 2004 I proposed to him on the 29th Feb, we married in 2008 on the 29th Feb just to be different of course and ever since I’ve joked about not knowing what it will feel like being proposed to…. I can tell you it’s amazing!  Obviously we will HAVE to renew our wedding vows now won’t we 😉  We was also asked to be god-parents to our new Nephew Roman!  Everything went on that night!

From the head shave I raised £2273.64 for Cancer Research, I donated my hair to The Little Princess Trust and I got some fab certificates for the pleasure.  Amazing to think that I raised all that money and my hair was accepted to make a wig for a little child who needs it.

For further information and links to the companies listed please click below:

http://www.cancerresearchuk.org/

http://www.littleprincesses.org.uk/

makelifememorable.wordpress.com or https://www.facebook.com/elowreyphotography

 

Here’s a few pictures from the night and a link to the video (grab a tissue!)

Lynz x

A – Z of me

I have just found this via another friends blog so I thought I’d do the same as it’s a fab idea.  Enjoy!

ANORAK: Do you have a sad side?

I absolutely love lists!  To do list’s, shopping lists, birthday lists and gift lists…… they are all fab!  I also change the sound on my car radio or TV to an even number or a 5 – no 1’s, 3’s, 7’s or 9’s for me thank you very much!  I do also find cleaning very therapeutic.

BODY: What physical attribute would you most like to change?

about 90% of my body.  My stomach, thighs, chin, bum, feet, arms, fingers and all female internal organs that do not work as they were created for.  Damn you ovaries!

CELEBRITY: Which one would you most like to date and why?

Ooo I have a few!  Will Smith, Vin Diesel, Jason Statham and Bradley Cooper are a few to reel off!  They are gorgeous 😉

DEBUT: Tell us about your first ever blog post. What made you start blogging?

My first blog post was on the 5th March 2012.  I decided to blog about the daily stresses that I was going through linking with life, my weight issues and most of all my infertility.

ERROR: What’s been your biggest regret?

I regret taking a job in a certain workplace as it made me ill.  Never again will I allow a workplace to take control of me.

FUNNY: Who’s making you laugh?

My husband makes me laugh with the things he comes out with.  He’s my best friend and can cheer me up instantly.  I have to give credit to my close family and friends here too as they can make me giggle especially my identical twin Sister in Laws – they are crackin’!

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GRAND: If we gave you one right now what would you spend it on?

I would probably book a holiday abroad to have some ‘us’ time as we struggle to get that these days.  We both deserve it!!

HOLIDAY: What’s your favourite destination?

I can’t chose just the one as I love lots of places that we have been to over the years.  Cyprus as it was our honeymoon destination, Las Vegas as it was completely different to anywhere else we have been before, Ibiza as it is a dance fans dream and Skegness (Butlins) as we have had lots of fun there.

IRRITATE: What’s your most annoying habit?
I am addicted to the Internet so this unfortunately means that I will be on my iPhone ever 5 minutes and when at home I will get on the laptop and search the Internet.  I need to cut down :/

JOKER: What’s your favourite joke {the one that makes you laugh every time you hear it}?

Why are pirates called pirates?

Because they AARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHH!  Haha!

KENNEL: Do you have any pets?
I have the most cuddly, friendly and mad dog you can come across.  Bruno is a Chocolate Labrador and he is our little son and love him dearly.  Look at that smile 🙂

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LOVE: Are you single, married, engaged, living with a long term partner?
I have been married for over 5 years and many more years are yet to come.

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MEAL: What’s your ultimate starter, main and dessert?

Starter: Anything mushroom based; bredded, stuffed or garlic mushrooms
Main: An amazing steak medium-rare with lots of vegetables and chunky chips
Dessert: Chocolate fudge cake

NOW: If you could be anywhere right now where would you be and who with?
On holiday with my amazing husband.

OFF DUTY: What do you do in your spare time?

What is spare time?  I am a workaholic and really need to cut down my jobs.  My Sister in Law calculated my working week being over 80 hours!  This is not good as it’s cutting my Internet use down dramatically 😉  I do enjoy going to the gym when I have the confidence though.

PROUD MOMENTS: What are you most proud of?

I am proud of graduating from University 3 times.  Not bad for a girl who comes from a normal family who has had to work her arse off to get where she is today eh 😉

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QUEASY: What turns your stomach?

Knees!!  You know how feet knock some people sick, well thats what it’s like for me with knees.  I have trouble with my knees personally and when they are having an off week and I’m in pain, the crunching and moving of them go through me.  I can’t even let anyone touch my knees either.  YUK!

RELAX: How do you relax?

I am the biggest stress head going (ask my family and friends) so relaxing is hard for me.  If anyone has any suggestions then please let me know 🙂

SONG: What’s your favourite song of all time?

Red Hot Chilli Peppers – By The Way,  I love that song!

TIME: If you could go back in time and relive it again, when would you choose?

I would go back to the point of me choosing my University course and seeing if I did want to go down the route I chose.  The only thing I would like to keep the same are the people who I have met along the way as I have made some really amazing friends.

UNKNOWN: Tell us something about yourself that no one else knows?

I’ll get back to you on that one 🙂

VOCAL: Who is your favourite artist?

I’m going to say Example.  I love his songs and he’s great live too.  Iam not dismissing any other bands I love too (Take That, Boyzone and 5ive to name a few)

WORK: What is your dream job, and are you doing it now?

I have always wanted to work with children and I have reached that achievement by becoming a Teacher and working as a Voluntary Online Cyber Mentor but I would love to be an event planner – planning weddings would be a dream come true!

XRAY: Any broken bones?

I have broken my left wrist twice and fractured it a third time.  I have always been in the wars and was given the achievement of ‘Accident Prone of the Year’ at school in 1996.

YIKES: What’s been your most embarrassing moment?

I’m not too sure to be honest….

ZOO: If you were an animal, which one would you be?

I think I’d like to be a tiger as I’d be able to fend for myself, have a ball with my group of friends and still eat meat. RAWRRR!!

A turning point in my illness with the help and support from family and friends!

Well on Sunday 6th January, I woke up feeling fresh and positive.  I was happy.  I came up with the statement:

Today is a good day! I’m not treating anything I have as an illness anymore. It’s a barrier. I will kick the fuck out of this barrier! If I can give advice then I can deffo take it too!! Family and friends be warned…. Lynz is coming back!!!

This is something I am hoping to keep up from now on.  I want to plough through this and get back to my old self but with a new outlook on life.

Over the past few days, I have been speaking to a number of family members and friends and the advice and support has been great.  It’s not been soft advice but very realistic.  It is spurring me on to be the person I once was.  I will get there, even if it takes a while.  Heres a few to list:

  • Focus on you and no one else
  • Everyone loves you no matter what but we want you better
  • You need to realise that you need to follow a weight loss plan that will suit only you and how you like to eat
  • Get on with things, don’t live for the things you can’t have, live for the things you can do

This will stay with me now and I will do what is best for me.  Thank you all 🙂

An end to my blog as we know it? Possibly.

Hi all!

I haven’t been blogging as much as of late as lots of my posts have begun to either hurt others around me or they feel that the stuff I post is about them.

I initially set out to blog so that I could relieve the stress and worry I have in my life (as others do) and in some ways it may help with this but it’s totally backfiring on me and I may have to stop doing it.  I’m upset at how my life strains of trying to conceive for over 4 years, struggling to get the break I deserve in my chosen career path, my weight issues and mental health posts from here or on Facebook are upsetting others.  This has put a MASSIVE strain on my life now as I feel that I will have to start pretending that I am ‘just fine’ when actually I am not: I am a total shell of myself and would not be in this situation if the above did as it should – my body allowing me to be a woman and do what nature intended AND what all the textbooks say of course; my career path falling into place like I would have expected after a good 4 years at College and another 4 years at University; my mind allowing me to focus on losing weight and not sneaking in random food here and there and finally my mental health as I would like to think straight and be the ‘normal’ person I used to be.

The other day I publicly apologised to all my family and friends stating the following:

Whilst it’s Christmas, I will sincerely apologies for clogging up your timeline with all things Partylite, depressing statuses and worries. Partylite is my sole job at the moment and you have to try and make a living right? My depressing and worried statuses are due to what I have been going through for a while so I have been expressing myself in this way (I have never ment any of these statuses to make anyone feel that I am targeting them, it’s in general) Hope you all understand and if you don’t like either then you know what the options are for removal. Thanks for reading 🙂

That should have cleared things up and I was told by some of my friends that I should not apologise for any of this but as I’m that nice girl who never goes out to harm anyone, I decided that it was right.

To conclude, this blog is to express some of my feelings from the range of issues I have in my life at the moment and to educate friends and family about my infertility journey (if you haven’t been on this journey especially as you don’t know what it’s like to be in this situation) and NOT to point out friends and family who might have said something to make me feel better but it’s not the right thing to say to an infertile and might have kids who think that they are rubbing it in because they have the family that I have always dreamed.

I hope you all begin to understand that nothing on here or on Facebook is ever about you; only me, my life, my feelings and my flaws.  If it was, I would tell you straight off.

xx Lynsey xx

An empty scan screen: My date with the nurse (28th Sept)

Sorry for the major delay in posting on my blog (especially this one) but I have had a busy couple of months and have now found a little bit of time to get writing again 🙂

So the 28th September was one of those days where things went from bad to worse….  I’ll start from the beginning shall I??

I was booked in for an internal scan by my GP due to a serve loss of blood that I had been experiencing over the past month and it was no where near stopping at this point nor was I at a point in finding out what was wrong with me after seeing the GP, visiting the NHS Walk In Centre and A&E.  Today finally came and all I wanted to see was something other than cysts on my ovaries…. this was never going to be the case of course!

Usually us ladies love having a scan as they show you something wonderful you, your body and your partner have made…. well my scan shown an empty space and ovaries that look like they have chicken pox….Woop!  The nurse said that I had a load of cysts; last time this was done, it was described as only having a few thus them developing further.  My GP said that if nothing else was on the scan then they would send me for further investigations to find out what is happening inside.  This further investigation will be happening on Tuesday!!  I will be having a laparoscopy.  My initial appointment will be then so hopefully I will be given a date on when this will be happening.  This will hopefully inform me on whether I have Endometriosis alongside PCOS.  I have wrote about what a laparoscopy is below for reference.  Hopefully I find out whats been going on!  Watch this space 🙂

Laparoscopy

A laparoscopy is a type of surgical procedure that allows a surgeon to access the inside of the abdomen and pelvis without having to make large incisions in the skin. It is also known as keyhole surgery.

Laparoscopy is minimally invasive. This is made possible with an instrument called a laparoscope.

Laparoscope

A laparoscope is a small tube that consists of a light source and a camera. The camera relays images of the inside of the abdomen or pelvis to a television monitor.

The surgeon makes a small incision in the skin and passes the laparoscope through it to study the organs and tissues inside the abdomen or pelvis.

The advantages of this technique over traditional open surgery are that people who have a laparoscopy have:

  • a faster recovery time
  • less pain after the operation
  • minimal scarring

 

As usual, I was given a lot of support from friends and family.  Here’s a few screen shots to show the support I have around me:

 

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Marbella Baby!!

I needed a relaxing break after my VERY busy and stressful year so my friends and I booked to go to Marbella for a week and my god what a great week we had!  My friends made sure that I wasn’t going to stress all holiday and their mission was successful!!

Some of you may be aware of this but I am not the best of flyers and they didn’t realise how bad I was.  Their answer to this was to take my mind off the flight and constantly distracted me from this.  A few songs were listened to and a few lines of my book were read too…..I fell asleep then!  After a lonnnnnnng transfer, we finally got to our hotel and we went straight to Buddies, the bar and pizza place at the end of the street for a few drinks and PIZZA!

Throughout the week we did nothing but chill out on the beach or around the pool throughout the day then drank, danced and had a laugh through the night!  We made friends with the French and Spanish entertainers, met quite a few interesting characters and paired up with a couple who took us under their wing and named us their daughters they never had!  God we loved them!!

We really did make some wonderful memories this holiday and if and when I ever get down, I know that these extra memories in my life will always cheer me up.

Thank you girlies 🙂